Everything - Atmosphere

When I was younger I didn't think that I would live

For as long as I've been living it

And I ain't saying I expected to die

Before that number got high

Just never deliberately considered it

Go figure it

Who'd known that I'd 'a had so many kids

And the first one's grown n' doesn't answer his phone

The third sun from the stone

Got me supposing

I'm supposed to focus

On keeping this home

Outta foreclosure

From all four corners

Feels like I'm riding on an old rollercoaster

The ghost of Christmas sober

Mostly but I'mma overdose

On these four leaf clovers

You can dance like a crash survivor

You can laugh or cry

Whatever pacifies you

Funny how time flies

To my family sets my raft on fire

I don't pretend to be cool don't pretend to be young

I don't pretend to be smart don't pretend to be dumb

I don't pretend to be hard don't pretend to be first

And most of all I don't pretend to be concerned

I don't pretend to be rich don't pretend to be broke

I don't pretend to be asleep don't pretend to be woke

I don't pretend to be deep don't pretend to be clean

I'm everything and everything that's in between

They said you only get one life

But I lived at least four lives in the life I'm living in now

And if I could handwrite what they say when I'm gone

It's that he's said everything that he could fit in his mouth

I got the coldest shoulder in the solar system

I know because I drove around this whole existence

Resistance to personal growth seems suspicious

What you really didn't want to go the distance

I don't stand still wander off I'm a drifter

Look at the bigger digital panoramic picture

You catch a panic attack from try'na handle the facts

You inanimate on a map

Wait though I'll never be finished infinity

Grateful for every opportunity you've given me

And when the time's right y'all can lighten up

Like there's too much life to love

I don't pretend to be cool don't pretend to be young

I don't pretend to be smart don't pretend to be dumb

I don't pretend to be hard don't pretend to be first

And most of all I don't pretend to be concerned

I don't pretend to be rich don't pretend to be broke

I don't pretend to be asleep don't pretend to be woke

I don't pretend to be deep don't pretend to be clean

I'm everything and everything that's in between