Impatience - Conveyer

You've never been the one to blame

You've never been the one to blame

That one to know that I'm at fault

But never take it out on me

If the two of us were both the same

I wouldn't know where I need to be

You're the bigger picture I can't see

This one goes out to you

Solitude at least that's what I call it

Keeping those streets of gold on my mind

I don't know why as the years they pass me by

It gets harder just to take my time

No one to keep me from you

No one to stay my hand from seeking the truth

From reaching up for the only hope I ever knew

For every time I wasn't honest kind or true

I used to think I was lucky

But I've realized now

I'm just blessed that

I found some sort of

Home in a heart even though I lived so long in selfishness

Because I've learned

You know my heart more

Than you know my routine

And most nights it's all

I need to be able to fall asleep

Because I've learned running

Away from home is like finding

Strength in weakness but

I always come back around knowing

That I can't continue to live like this

So thank you for your honesty

I've found that love has gone

From just being sobering to being

So refreshing

And even if pain doesn't go away

I just thank God you decided to stay

Because I know I have purpose

When you purposefully tell me

You that see something in me even

When I can't see myself

Myself

If this hasn't been waiting in vain

I could consider this monogamy

Living devoted and betrothed to the one

Who believed in me and wouldn't give up

If the clock looks like it ticks too slow

Even when it's given time to grow

I'll know for sure that

It was my own impatience

That I'd feel better if my ego was vacant

In closing I'd like to thank you for her

For every word she spoke to help me rest assured

That I'm not lonely that I'm not falling away

For every time she reminds me of

You and lives up to her name

Thank you for everything thank

You for having patience with me

Thank you for reminding me that

God is all that I will ever need

Thank you for praying for me

Thank you for giving me room to breathe

Thank you for letting me see

Who I am and who I want to be